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before you start calling the cops on me .. I do mean game wise .. I’m going to beat my son on he Wii console , doing the biggest loser game.. its a big change and fun so since I have a partner right now and I have someone to push , him of course .. I actually get a lot of it for myself .. tonight is another work night so on my feet another 8 hours and lifting boxes .. what fun .. I cant wait .. yeah I can .. I so wish for a lottery win so I can tell them I’m not coming back every single time I leave …

but then there are the bills, bills ,bills ..

I did good on the work out .. sweated up a storm , got a steady rhythm..going even with being so tired from all night work .. were getting use the workouts that the game offers .. so its good fun .

C-Ya.

Today was a bit of a slower day .. being kids are back in school and so I have put that back into my schedule .. I’m not a great fan of change but it never ceases to stop doing that . I have to do this in the morning since I have work tonight.. so I actually think I should count the 8 hours that I will be on my feet moving considered some sort of exercise .. there is some weight-lifting in there too .. so this couple of days I will be working on my regular graveyard shift.. so between the never happy customers and the angry pushy managers .. and the constant scream .. hurry up and get that work done .. I’ll dragging myself back in tomorrow morning … C-Ya.

Easter Time again .. well we had our easter egg hunt .. kids found them .. too bad it was a rainy day though so we had to have the hunt indoors , had to really make sure the kids found them so we dont have a problem in finding stinking eggs later .In all we had a fun time .. I was afraid I wouldnt get a workout in today since I was cooking a cleaning so much today .. but with the help and challenge of my son .. I think he might be letting me win , but  we did my Wii game for the biggest losers and I won , then he won but in all we got an intense workout .. even though I did eat some chocolate I didnt over do it .. and I feel very happy about that .. I got to blog about my workout and since I joined a group for a two week challenge , I feel like I can hold myself accountable for my weight at least for two weeks .. then after that , two weeks more then two more after that .. I say I’m on a roll and all I see is the speed is picking up and hopefully there isnt a crash .. C-ya

I have this problem .. i’m a graveyard shift worker .. so my days and nights are mixed up .. having kids around that need me up during the day and work at night to have me on my feet all night long . having the darnest time to figure out how to get this and that done .. taking care of myself , like i should seems to be the hardest thing to get on board with .. with the work i have most of the time i have some kind of body pain that i often use to get out of doing my workouts . my own weakness , so i dont blame anyone .. so i was looking at the forum and the challenges and groups .. but how to join and such .. have no clue .. what can i say.. well the more i stay on the computer the less time i have to workout before the kids get up demanding my attention .so for now , im taking my deep breath , reaching for my bottle water, powering on the dvd and not going to think about this for a little bit till I done what needs to get done today .. C-Ya

I know its April 1 , but I’m not in a practical joking mode .. at least not all the time ..

but on my own I guess its a good time as any to take this time to try to start again ..

It was hard not to have this words to push myself to get myself into thinking I need to

get this thing moving and do something .. I found a new slogan that I like .. “shut  up and sweat ”

I  guess that will be my words for my mindset .. It is hard to get things done when I’m so out of it

but  ,I have to start somewhere .. This is the only place on the web that i found  wasn’t actually offered something

to buy to get thin, some magic pill, or other item .. cause of course I’m a big sucker for those things .. This time I will

try to use the tools  more seriously that are available to me on this website … so here it goes

Day 1  …again !..C-Ya

yeah still trying but the road has sure had its mountain of bumps … i lost my dad this year … and i really cant say im the same … its harder when you havent seen him for a while but at least you know he was there when you wanted to see him .. but now i know hes not there but in my heart … so at least i still have him with me .. my exercise has been very slow and not going lately .. i know the weather is getting warmer and i will want to be out more but i just cant get to push myself when i feel so tired .. from work and kids .. and since i havent been writing down my thoughts anymore … i know there are others that feel as i do … but still it dont help … so i just got in from work still listening to my music and trying to figure out how to do what i need to get done … i guess its only going to take a kick , a smile and a shaking booty dance to get going .. so here i go .. that is after i wake up from my nap … sweet dreams … c-ya

its been a while since had a chance to find my thoughts . so while i have them all wound up and in a nice straight line i guess ill write down a bit of what i have been up too.. first thing , now that the holidays are finally over , but now all the bills that are waiting to get paid now .. but i will worry about that at least not today .. maybe tomorrow ..

well my days have been full of trying to get everything jammed into making life and family happy . I have been trying to get my workouts in , at least alot more often than i have been so maybe i have a good feeling about how things are going right now .. hubby is very supportive there , hes sweet trying his best .. the main reason i can say i love him ..

my kids are a big help in keeping my body in motion .. since they are so full of energy thats all the have to give me is there laughter and kisses to keep me going and if all the fails then of course they can chase me around with their dirty socks and boy ,, will i be running then …

i know i have a long ways to go .. i find it a big surprise when i see myself in the mirror and see someone i dont recognise .. where was i when i gain so much and gotten so old … lol..

well , i guess we have our little moments .. but hey .. things go the way they go .. im still working on the overnight shift so its hard to get as much rest as im suppose to .. the kids and hubby help there by letting me sleep when i need to but i feel like im missing out on things since im asleep but then i cant fight my body when it wants to fall out …

i miss the time when i could stay awake all night and just sit and talk to my hubby and still have the energy to do things during the day .. it sure slows you down but , i can say i have a great man to get old with ….

my second oldest son , got married to his girlfriend for 5 years .. we all got in the car and drove down to las vegas for the fastest ceremony i have ever been too .. but i still had a chance to cry a bit , like all moms are suppose too.

my little man has turned 5 on new years so we have a little one that is going to be going to school soon .. yeah a little sane time for mommy ,,, i really cant wait for that … but i will most likely only be sleeping .. working out yes of course .. but mostly sleeping at least if im sleep im not eating … another way of thinking ..

i have been working out to the biggest loser dvds .. so im working on a 6 week program . mixing up the workouts and just moving and moving .. when i feel not so much into working out i just use a more low impact type but they are all very good in keeping my heart rate up and going , my motivation comes and goes but at least im not stopping ..

in feb .. i will be 4o something more  again so i have a goal to lose some weight before then … keeping my chubby fingers  crossed and working out for the best …

im still moving and hope you all are doing the same … c-ya

its monday my couple of days off of work have taken off like a flash in the night .. or falling star .. oh well basically anything that is the fastest thing that is how fast my weekend went by … i did do a couple of workouts during that time .. which i can say was very good for me .. i got a couple of new belly dancing videos to workout with and i just admire the way these women can move and make it seems so easy .. but when i try my hand at it .. oh boy .. not so easy .. but its getting better and that is what you try to aim for right .. just get better and not giving up ..

I did have to rearrange my music on my player though … I found myself in the kitchen this morning .. my place where i embaress the kids when im in there ..cause im cooking but im dancing and working out and singing and of course trying not to burn the house down .. so there i am shaking some of my hip moves and my baby girl goes up to me and tell me.. “mommy why are you shaking your booty “and i turn to look at her .. after taking my music off … then i looked at her and said the first thing i could think of .. well baby … I shake my booty .. hmmmmm.. cause my booty is so big it needs to shake .. and of course there was a giggling fit and her promptly telling everyone else in the house that mommy is dancing in the kitchen again ….. hey you have to work off some calories before you can add right ?

though today is a bit of a moody monday .. being i just want to sleep today but , then i know i will be up all night in the beginning of a rough week … not only is it going to be rough but i wont be able to be at home for the holiday at least not the night … but hey .. be thankful for everything i have and that i do … very thankful .. but if you can complain once in a while and have a bit of a laugh at life once in while ..

so thanksgiving is coming up.. so there goes the turkey , pumpkin pies with plenty of cool whip …. potatoe salad … and all the rest of those goodies but since i have to work all week i not really sure how i can get that done .. too bad i dont have a personal chef friend that could come and help me out … but hey .. i can dream ..

so since i have alot of work to look forward too…i better go take a nap so i can stay up all night and do just that … i think i got my music set for the night so i can push through what i need to get done and still have that big smile for all those sweet people that need to demand to know where that one vitamin, or depends in that size , or even the ones that make me crack up asking me what size or how good a condom actually is .. but hey mother of 6  .. after i finish laughing i can tell them i have no idea .. but i do professional tell them we do have many new designs to try out if they like ..im fine and get a laugh about these things but i think one day i may turn and find out one of my daughters boyfriend asking for those things and boy am i killing someone … and definitly not selling them … lol… oh boy …

so i guess ill leave my thoughts right now .. dancing around … C-Ya

is it really friday? .. the question burning over my lips as i crawl my very very tired body in the front door … as i try to bring my thoughts back together from being scrambled at work all night .. not to mention my knees … oh ,my aching knees .. why does a supercenter have to be so (bleeping ,bleeping ) big ? .. as i gather what is left of my body .. and try to smile again .. i then , of course have to push my body once more to see if i can do all the swaying , jiggling , and such in my belly dancing work out .. hmmmmm … who seriously would had thought i could still find more muscles in this tired body to get sore and tired still .. lol… but i sure did .. and i was just standing still most of the time as i pratice my drills and postures .. im so glad i dont have a mirror where im working out at .. or i may just say … “oh no .. no no no no .. you get going to get that belly to do what that ladies belly is doing in the video “.. but since i dont .. im lucky i can happily shake what god and mommy gave me …. and shake and shake .. oh what an earthquake .. but believe im very happy scaring this side of my world … lol…. so im come to realise though im so dog tired .. sweat is still dripping down my back .. and my muscles are a bit peeved off with me and my bosses for making  me work so much last night and still have another night to look forward to .. at least i have a couple of nights off .. and i cant wait to be able to sleep in my own bed and not have to be woken up by the alarm screaming at me to get up and do or go somewhere …so even though the body is tired .. the spirit isnt broken .. tired , very tired but not completely broken … so until my next thought should cross my mind and i want to share again .. C-Ya

a question i find i have to ask myself so many times and sometimes many times a day … hey you .. talking to myself .. are we having fun yet? and the answer most of the time is just hushhhhhh and keep sweating.. i always wonder about the logic of sweating .. i do so much of that all day .. all night since i work putting up freight all night long .. i would think i should be a twig of a girl ..but no im not and im not commenting on how bit this girl is ..lol … it wouldnt do much for my state of mind right now anyways … well since i havent been on for a while.. hmmmm .. the workouts are coming and going .. its hard to keep up with it during the day since i just got in from work and my body wants to pass out .. but im trying i guess that is the main thing … im doing more video. well dvd workouts right now since the weather is getting a bit too cold to force my little shadow to follow me outside … so its all about the kick boxing and aerobics and i even got out my bellydancing workouts i like those the best .. but hey i figure i have the belly i might as well work it out ..lol… just dont break it i guess is the key …. so the halloween candy is still bugging me but at least its not too bad a temptation … but its still tickling me here and there with those little voices .. eat me eat me ……but i can walk away  so its all up to me .. and im trying .. my weight is stopping right now stuck like a stone in a river bed … not going down or up so i guess that is pretty good but im trying to move that little sucker a bit further down … if i keep trying my body may get the idea to help me out but till then .. i guess i need to wait until the fun happens … and keep asking …. are we having fun yet ????????